Im a Failed Blogger!

I've never been popular my whole life. I think there must be something inside me that didn't get enough attention a kid or something because I seem find myself looking all time. I think about some career paths I have walked down: I've been a musician, a pastor (who gets get a platform talk people - getting attention - even if I do have something selfless say - I like feeling I get when I feel like people "get it" - anybody else have this common?), I've been a stand-up comedian (here, there's a real pressure get people like you because if they don't, they let you know fast). I even started "blogging" because a lot great bloggers are out there they seem know how type just right things get lots lots feedback. Heck, I figured I'd tried everything else, why not see if I get some feedback, too. And you know what I found out?

Blogging frackin' hard! And what whole point a blog? To get comments. Yes, is! You know good well that write things because you have simply "get them off your chest," you could write a diary or a journal (by journal, I mean, "book," not "webjournal"). You could even type your computer save away your "My Documents/Private Diary 2 am Thoughts." Nobody would ever have see it. But, you don't. Why? Because we have something inside us that wants people give a crap! We don't want our thoughts remain silent. Especially controversial thoughts. Why? Maybe because controversial thoughts gain ATTENTION! And with attention comes what? More feedback. And I am no different. Musician. Artist. Comedian. Pastor (Actually, I should use word "Preacher" here instead pastor.). And now, Blogger. The only difference that nobody reads my blogs. Well, if they do, they rarely comment them.

I got fired because I blogged. I wanted attention. I got attention all right. And you know what? I still blog! Why? Because I'm an idiot? No, because I figure somewhere out there, somebody might just care enough about what I'm saying that they'll comment back. Maybe even get a whole revolution blogs going. Who knows? Maybe I could be one those "Expert Bloggers" - you know who you are, if you are even reading this - that draws conversations big dialogues over at my blog because I'm just cool enough get people's attention.Only I'm not cool enough.

And I've commented other blogs. My, oh my, how I have commented "prostituted" myself all over blogosphere. Who cares, I guess. Some guys (and gals) are really popular. They can write, "I had an orange today," they still receive thirty-five comments ("Hey, Me too!" - by JoeBlogg, among thirty-four others saying, "Hey, I love oranges!"). Nothing me, though. Sadly, I actually make up my own comments put fake names them just so if by some chance somebody comes along reads it, they'll think, "This guy must be cool. He must be popular. People are commenting his." Sadly, I have done this before.

I'm a failed blogger. I could hang my head shame bow out gracefully. But, I will probably continue post these random thoughts because somehow, means something me. Who knows? Maybe tomorrow, somebody will see whole "Emerging Pilgrim Blog Revolution" begins. And if not, maybe I'll just take road. Time once again hit Comedy Clubs. At least there if I don't get laughs, I'll get some food out deal.

Bryan Thompson a humorist living Marianna, FL.